pls pardon me for nagging and kp-ing about work again :((sighh.
ii have been so awful nowadays... ii went to work without makeup (this is still alright cos ii dun put makeup to work since the second day of work), NOW I DUN EVEN BOTHER TO PUT MY FALSIES!
ii am simply too lazy to and the better right?
cos ii think she* doesnt like it.
so ii am being as simple as ii can alr!
next would be my poor hair!
the thought of all these that ii have to sacrific becos of the moolahs ii am earning now (which is not alot), ii felt like crying!
why?
why do ii have to make my life so difficult for myself?
ALL BECOS OF MONEY!
though BOSS is not ard for these 2 days, ii still feel very stressed!
ii have alot of writs to clear until ii barely have time to rest my poor eyes!
its blurry and painful most of the time :((
&& constantly getting paranoid and stuffs like that as in whether ii perform up to standard or not? whether my dress is long enough or not!
whether ii rmb to go up to FRC or not! whether ii behave and not make too much noise in the office or not and blah blah blah...
it seems like its the first time ii am so stressed up at work :(
sometimes ii felt liek as though ii am suffocating u know?
keep having to worry about this and that :(
seriously ii dunnoe how long more ii am able to take it before ii really snapped and go crazy!
everyday ii have to drag myself up so that ii can stop being late (ii am supposed to! so no complains for that)
ii am just afraid that ii couldnt finished my core duty and get f-you-cked again like ii am doing too slow?
like now, ii have ceased all internet usage!
if ii am still considered slow in doing that den ii dunnoe who can do it faster den me and not make any mistakes...
its not as though ii am only paid to do the core work!!! i have to go for understudy!!!
mayb u will think its a very very minor issue!
but if u were in my shoes right now, right there...
u will understand how ii feel!
all the others can but ii cant :(
just becos ii am ___.
NO COMMENTS SERIOUSLY.
just obey and dun speak, thats what ii learn now.
U KNOW? ii am not trying to complain and make noise!
I JUST WANNA LET IT OUT BEFORE I GO MAD HAVING TO WORRY SO MUCH!
IN THE END, I AM NOT LEST HAPPY AT ALL (minus my wonderful nice colleagues).
they are the ones who kept me going (:
P.S- I AM HEADING TO BED & COMPANY someone* to talk (:
